Just had an interesting exchange w/W she decided to tell me that she had "very insightful conversation" last night. She went out with the girls. All her girls are D it was one of their Bdays. Apparently she's thinking hard about her decision to withdraw and not work on the relationship for the last year or more. She said she thought she found a happy place(not engaging me in argument to keep her own happiness) but she realizes that this "actually made everything worse." If she's conflicted over this I think there may be some small shred of hope.
Maybe these ladies have helped her see that both of our actions have not been beneficial over the last year and maybe she is getting a better sense of what her decision might entail. She's told me she needs space and time to think. I told her to do whatever she needs and that I'm here for her. I could tell she was in heavy thought this am. She was not her normal self. It may be a good thing that she's spending time with these ladies I'm glad I've backed off trying to control this type of thing completely and will continue to detach. I think my behavior is also helping her to see I can change and control this anger problem I have.
Still devoted to the dream!
Me 41 Wife 38 T20 M13 S8 D3 Bomb 1/26/15 A confirmed 2/19/15
