Part 12 - Contents may vary

[Vanilla]

I suspect the higher body temperature attracts the little @*i#s.

Nothing but nothing stops them. I bought a cream in India called Neem that helps but makes one smell like a compost heap.

I have been musing on memory and how overall it is poor.

Also how selective and how much we filter as a result of emotion. Depending on our state we may view the same event in the same way.

Hormonal flooding seems to deposit negative traces into long term memory and repeat association triggers further long term memory deposits. Apparently the protective structure of the amygdala causes negative memory traces to fade, it's valuable in trauma protection and forgetting physical pain. It is thus possible that reducing interaction and preventing flooding may assist in improving the WAS selective view of their history. It is their history after all.

Becoming the person only a fool would leave may incrementally retile fringes of memory. Changing the perception may change the memory, I have noticed the process of familiarisation, if we loose weight then those closest often do not notice. It is when we meet someone that we have not seen for a while that change is obvious. That is why in house S may be less effective. How soon we get used to a new hair cut or appearance change. Incremental change may thus be about subtly adapting an old view with the current vision.

When I think of H I remember him not as he was but as how he is. I have rewritten the memory of certain aspects of the old H with the new one. I see the current sitch as if it had always been as it is. This is unfair to H but is what the mind does to itself.

Why am I thinking about this? Well I am asking myself if Edz W will go wow, will W rewrite recent history back to the original. In essence we do not need for WAS to be attracted to us as if we were new propositions. We already know that we map for them, that is established otherwise why would they be attracted in the first place. My becoming the best we can be then we re attract. So the question I am asking is should Edz reveal his sauve changes gradually or in a big reveal?

Would it be best to wear the 'baggies' and then tra la? Or is the subtlety of the changes rewriting trace? Would a physical change draw attention to the overall changes. Always remembering that if we do these changes for ourselves they endure beyond transition.

V is in reflective mood to day, so apologies for the long post.

V