daring, I'm glad you met w/a counselor and your son will be meeting w/the counselor very soon. It will help your son to have someone to talk to about what's bugging him.
As for your h being fidgety...he knew he had to tell you about the agreement and didn't know how you would respond. Also, guilt was eating at him for what he had to tell you, it wasn't a moment of "oh chit", it was more like "how will she react to what I'm about to tell her".
Guilt has a way of working on their minds, hearts and souls. Let it eat at him and don't try to fix things for him. He's got to grow up and one way to do that is allowing him to fall down and figuring out how to stand tall once again.
Please take care of yourself.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
