So the question on the table is how will you pick up the pieces and carry on? What does your life look like 2,3,10 years from now? I see a happy woman who wonders why she ever took so long. But more importantly, what do you see?
And why do you think it wouldn't hurt? Why do you feel so impatient with yourself, as if you could flip a switch? That wouldn't be true to you if you could. It wouldn't honor the life you had if you could. Or the person you are.
Take a breath. Realize that some things you can control. Some you cannot. In the latter category, you can't control what your ex does or if he's "in your face" all the time. You can obviously control your dignity and grace when in public.
Step back for a second and see things for what they are. They are what they are.
Now, what are you going to be like? What's your life going to become? Good? Great? ??
You're a person who loves hard, Mighty. Don't ever think that you won't find somebody worth it. That's not true. Many I know would kill for the chance with somebody like you.
Will you be ready when you meet somebody that's worth getting to know? Or will you be tied up with things that are in your face and you can't control (like the weather?)
I know from watching you that you'll be ready. Even if you can't see it yet. The future's bright and you're going to enjoy it. In time, Mighty.
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
