Great reminder about not worrying about stbx and what he's working on. I needed to hear that. Thank you.
I am also grateful that those of you who have been in my daughter's shoes can express to me how it feels because I really need that, too. I'm committed to helping her and i can see behind those big brown eyes that she is doing the VERY best she can with her behavior. I'm not just saying that as her mom. I really believe that. Yes, she's brilliant (as I type this she is composing her first "piece" on the piano) but that's the easy part (even though it's actually quite hard).
Even if she doesn't see that I'm amazing when she's 25 years old, I know she'll remember that I TRIED and I advocated for her and I supported her. Right now, that really matters to me.
I responded to the signal as well - the day you sent it :-)
That's YOU! ok! Whew! At first I was curious and then I was confused and then I forgot and then I was confused again and now all is right with the world.
I had THE most amazing day with D7 today. After an absolutely horrid day/night yesterday with her it was a welcome and refreshing change.
It. Was. Amazing.
I really, really needed it. And so did she. It was awesome. I'm going to think about it all week.
After last night's horrific nightmare I was talking to stbx on the phone and he was a great listener. He was supportive and encouraging and it REALLY helped me. It's strange to see the good in him right now given that I've been staring into a dark rainy cloud that is our impending divorce (that I've still not discussed with him because that would mean progress and I'm not there yet... funny how I was so afraid of limbo and now i'm afraid of getting out of limbo...). I appreciate it though and I told him that. He was really there for me when I needed someone last night and no one on this planet understands how hard D7 can be when she's at her absolute worst except him (and only since BD but I'll take it).
Anyway, great day. Hoping to take this into the next week! I could really use a change and starting this week off well with D7 is REALLY helping.
