May life be;

[Ggrass]

Yeah, had a busy morning. I have just mastered the tv box.

Another thing you don't need to be a bloke for, I used to get old off for touching technology so I didnt. Now I can record some of my fave shows which are always on when I am not here. So shows that are serries and I might work some times and miss things. No more, it's super easy to set.

Perhaps I should have recorded cc ii it real was a long drawn out saga to Linda! Given her affair with Paul meh! Makes me jaded. I see it ore as a over acted spoof, but it was meant to be a foray for hogan Into serrious acting. I think comedy was where he was talented and he should have stayed with dry humor.

This morning I was reflecting in the whole dynamic of arguments which were had.

The general structure of the argument used to go something like
Issue as in son was assaulted.

I would express concerns for real issues, my concerns were invalidated then, I was drawn into defending my position ie why it was wrong. I had to listen to his justifcation of why it wasn't wrong ie sons behaviour demanded it.

Then It turned into you never told me this wasn't ok, this is an accident one off or mulitude of other reasons.

I was left telling a grown human what are adult normals and right from wrong.
His behaivours for achieving this was to verbally abuse ie call names wh$&@ sl&$@ be accused of cheating which was all in h words heat of the moment things mistakes.

Yet I find it hard to reconcile that he knew it wasn't wrong because it's not something he would have done with others watching or in public.
i struggle with the whole view I have being seen by most as right or wrong, but h view is if he does those things it's just a slip of him being human, but I know he will not tolerate those things being done to him.

I once insulted him and told him to stop being a Richard cranium! He tryed to destroy my personal property (as punishemnt) as that was the worst human insult to call a man. Totally unforgivable, but yet it was insults by which he argued.

When I tryed to set bounderies about argument staying civil disscusions ie I will not discus this until you can be calm. Was harsh seen as shutting him down, unless I agreed with him arguments were circluar and continued until h go his way.

I have been pondering about bounderies and while I might have used different words I believe the reasoning on those was sound.

So what I am looking at this "past" to improve things now and in the future?
Well I'm thinking I need to look at my r, friend etc. See who reciprocates and adds value meets you half way.

Who can respect bounderies, who don't expect you to give up your standards to keep the peace. Not sure how to implement this but I'm sure it's more about being in the moment.

I guess that all shows I'm just circling digging to find my real issues.