Today W and I went to do our taxes. The tax guy was slow and wife was irritated because she had to be back to work to finish up some tasks. So at a couple of moments W gets an attitude with me because I got a figure wrong or had no idea about what the tax guy was talking about. Through us being S, I've sometimes come to feel her attitude attributed too in growing us apart. She's mentioned it as a factor in the past prior to sitch, but I don't think she's ever really worked on it.
On a side note, I wonder if her wanting to get taxes done so soon maybe has something to do with her wanting to file for D. There have been no D talks, but I just wonder.
This afternoon after work I decided to text and let her know how I'm feeling since we haven't ML in over 3 months and that I miss her. It was short and to the point. I also said that if she didn't feel the same way that I understood. She didn't reply. Her next reply was that she was getting off work and headed to pick up the kids and would meet me at my house.
This makes about 5 times I've put my feelings out there only for her to not respond or say something that doesn't reciprocate what I'm feeling.
In some past weeks she's asked me whats wrong or how something was going with me that had nothing to do with our R. I've always replied to the how I'm doing with I'm cool or its nothing. Despite my replies, I'm usually letting sitch get to me or wanting to tell her how I feel about her because I think it'll change her feelings. With other inquiries from her, I've always kept it to the point and let her know what was going on. Then and now I look back on those moments and ask myself why does she even care.
Right now I'm at a loss. Lately, I'm finding it hard to detach or not think about her or our sitch.
Last edited by Arcola; 02/07/1501:55 AM.
Me:30 W:34 M:8 T:9 D:9 D:4 D:3 S:4 S:1 D bomb: 8/2014 S 12/2014 PA Confirmed in 3/2015 if I recall correctly
