First off, you've got to get your anger under control. Are you seeing a therapist about that?
next, she is not a cause for your anger. Anger is a reaction that YOU CHOOSE to do. You don't need to show anger in order to show passion and decisiveness. It doesn't show you as a weak person. You just need to get that part of you under control.
Can you explain in detail your marital history? Are you typically angry and not just with her? What do you say to her during your angry bouts? Doesn't sound like you valued her which is why you didn't "feel" anything towards her. It's much easier to yell and get mad at someone that you "don't know" and that's what you were doing.
Be as detailed as you can and don't sugarcoat your role in this. The more open and honest you are here, the easier it will be to craft a plan for you.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
