Rebuilding 1 step at a time

[Heart14]

Hi Mozza! Thanks for checking in. Things are still going really well. When we were first piecing I still felt that things were awkward at times. Probably because we were both feeling out new ways of communicating and understanding each other. I can honestly say I don't feel that way anymore. H is very engaged as a husband and father now. It's almost hard for me to believe that last year at this time we were on the brink of divorce. We both feel closer now than we have in years.

I think it's Train that mentioned antiversaries. All of our really painful ones are coming up in the next few months. Hopefully those dates don't trigger me too much. We've planned a romantic "date" at home for one of them and a vacation for another. That was important to me because I want to celebrate where we are now. I feel incredibly blessed to have come through this stronger. Certainly I'm not as naive as I used to be. I realize now that our relationship needs to be nourished. It isn't guaranteed and effort is required. I suppose that's common sense, but H and I lost sight of that along the way. The dark days gave me my freedom in a way. I no longer feel like I need H, I just really want him. I don't take myself for granted anymore either. I enjoy doing things for me as much as I do for H and our son now.