Live! Great to hear from ya! That was a great post. Thank you. Glad you like the video clip. It made me cry, too. And yes... what I'm looking for is to become better, stronger, and wiser.
I read my inspiration app every morning before I get out of bed. Today's was, "The LORD is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit." Psalm 34:18. Gotta say, it helped me get out of bed and kept me strong today... well at least most of it! (Ahem, we will ignore the freak-out session in my car.)
Anyway, I have to relearn this communication crapola. I am just not ready yet. I got a text tonight from xh, "Hi Mighty! What do you want to do about the taxes?"
Eewww! Leave me alone! That's what I was thinking. I didn't open it; I just left it. I was thinking I'd just leave it alone, not even think about it until tomorrow.
About 3 minutes he started calling my phone. Eeeewwwwww!! I bumped it to voicemail.
About another 2 minutes passed and he texted, "S17 got a call today for a job interview." (Xh has s17's phone since we took it from him about a month ago.)
I was thinking, why the heck did he wait until 9:20 at night to send that? It's not like s17 can call now. But, he probably just saw the message.
Then, I heard d13 on her phone upstairs and call to s17 about he call. Xh called her. Both kids spoke to him. Then d13 came down and showed me she broke her phone- right after they hung up. OK, how many is that now? (I never mentioned that s17's broke the week of Christmas, too!) We are keeping the iphone repair shop in business!
So, there is a place right near where xh works that fixes them. And, since I have paid for several phones being fixed, I told her to ask him. She wanted to call from mine- and it is currently the only working one here. I was hesitant, but told her it was fine.
Next thing you know, she walks into my room and hands me the phone- "Dad wants to talk to you."
Ugh. Not prepared. Was avoiding.
He asked what I want to do about the phone. Said he'd take it but do I want to pay? I said that I've paid for several. He started crying about how "upside down" he is with money- I cut him off... "That's not my problem." So he started saying something else about it, and I just said, "Don't worry. I'll handle it, just like everything else. Bye." Click.
I hate being a b. I really do. But, I'm not in the mood and I was caught off guard. I know, not really an excuse, but c'mon!
OK, I am finding a balance.... somewhere. OK, maybe not finding... but searching.
