Talking to a good friend today about sitch and he said something to me that hit me so hard, in a good way to explain some of W's actions over the last 6 months.

I was telling him how now W is acting back to normally, the feelings I have for her came rushing back in, I knew I was still in Love with her. I said to him that it was so much easier when W was acting weird and mean, I could justify in my head that she was someone I didn't want to be with for how she was acting.

He said, "MCS, now you probably know how W felt and why W has tried to see everything bad in you, even is she had to make it up in her head. It helped her feel distant and disconnected from you, easier to deal with 'being done' with you. IDK, but I'm sure it was one reason that she's avoided you, it makes her second guess when your not the 'monster' that she can create when she's not around you. "

Made me think about some of the advice here and how WAS acts to us.

M:36 W:37
T: 15 M:11
S6 D5
BD: 8/10/14
IDLY: 8/12/14
S: 8/13/14 (she left, I stayed w/ kids)
D Mentioned: 10/15/14
Confronted about OM: 10/15/14
EA: ~4/13 PA: ~10/13
She filed: 8/15 (not final)