Masterpiece...

[Jer2911]

As crazy and heartbreaking as all of this is for me and our family -- I can definitely see how I am growing from this. From a spiritual standpoint I really get it -- God needed to really shake me up to get me to come back... So yes, I do see it that way (the same way that you see it) and I am trying very hard to be the most amazing me that I can be :-)

And I know that her MLC is not about me anyway. It's really all about something going on inside of her.

I do know that they apparently had a great week together -- couldn't help it this morning and did a little snooping and found a card from OW that she gave my W to read "on the plane" and it was very clear what happened on the trip. At first I felt sad and mad, but now I just feel sad for both of them because no matter how wonderful it was -- it was a vacation and, at least for my W, it's all completely secret. Think about that for a moment -- when we fall madly and deeply in love with someone, don't we all want to tell EVERYONE about it? Don't we all want to share photos and stories of how wonderful this person is and how much we love them and how much fun we had together on our vacation? And my W can't do any of that. So it may have been wonderful, but how sad to not be able to share that with anyone. And it was just a vacation -- they still have not had to be with each other while also dealing with boring day-to-day stuff and stress...

But I am going to really stop trying to snoop. I don't like that I'm doing it and there isn't much I can do with the info.

Just heard her car pull in... Off now to work on some of my grading and do a few other things before heading up to bed.