Hey Don't knock plan B most people are living theirs.
Besides plans in general are usually just a list of things that don't happen.
It's hard not to snoop, I know, and I know you can find any sort of reason to snoop. You should stop though, best case your going to find something. Worst case is you don't...so you keep looking until you do or make up bigger monsters in your mind.
Let me suggest something about the 'emotionless" responses. Why? Is being the ice queen going to make her miss you more or...will it justify the warmth of the OW arms?
You don't loss anything Right Now by being a little more warm.
There is a time and place for chilly stares and emotionless soul sucking responses, but right now? She has an opportunity to see the good. Hell maybe even miss or question not wanting it?
This is not a game...and yet, it is a game.
You can responded nicely AND still go out and be mysterious if you want to play it that way.
It doesn't hurt you right now.
Okay -- a lot of things in there to think about Jack...
I didn't mean that I don't want to be Plan B -- I'd be very happy if that were the case... But I fear that she doesn't see me as that...
Yeah -- I know... stop snooping... I'm doing better than I was and trying hard not to do so... Will continue to keep trying hard to not do it -- even if I have to do it one moment at a time.
I'm not emotionless all of the time -- at times I've been very friendly and upbeat and am pretty sure I can be that way tonight when she gets home... But when it comes to this stupid trip she just took -- I just can't smile and say "You are very welcome!" Just can't be cheerful about it... I know that is bad and probably does turn her off a bit... So I do try to make up for that by being more upbeat and cheerful about other things and at most other times.
I guess this comes down to the fact that my W is in such a bad place that even when I am at my best, she still doesn't see the good that I bring to this home and our family... I am just the horrible enemy who has made her life miserable for the past 10 years... (Totally not true, but "true" in her MLC mind)
Me 48, Her 50 (Same-Sex Couple) 3 Children Together: 9.5 years before BD BD: Week of 10/27/14 ExW started EA w OW 9/2014 ExW married OW 12/2015
