While I appreciate that I contributed to problems in my marriage, I did not cheat, lie and run away. But I don't get the luxury of a natural, human reaction to this deep fundamental betrayal of what I held most dear. Instead, I have to be the grown up and somehow turn this sow's ear into a silk purse for my kids.
STBX thinks he's being a great guy by "not fighting" over anything, but at the end of the day I am left as the caretaker for the vast majority of what is left of our life together while he runs away, self medicates with a new relationship and tries to make everything seem ok with a cheap veneer of civility.
I know eventually I will be in a better place than him, but it's cold comfort some days.
Phew! That felt good. Very cathartic! Much like you, I feel ready for a little vacation. STBX will have girls for a few extra days during spring break, I will have to do something then. T minus 54 days and counting!
