Mozza, thanks so much for checking in and offering your feedback.
You are very right about beauty, of course it is in the eye of the beholder. I guess I was trying to say that he's with many OWs who are not horrible crackheads or losers. They are sexy, smart and beautiful young women. I am too, but hey, he dumped me. Oh well.
I do hear what you are saying and agree that it might seem he is in seventh heaven with his OWs but maybe he is not. I guess I am just jealous that he is already finding great new partners so easily while I worry I'll be alone forever (in my darkest moments).
Interestingly, discovering he is dating OWs that I know is much worse than the OWs I don't know. OW1 really bothered me as we were friends, but he also dated at least 3 other women and that didn't bother me as much. Maybe he was really excited by them but that didn't irritate me as much because I didn't know them and couldn't imagine them. Now OW4 let's call her, is another friend of mine and that irritates me because I can put a face and personality to my nightmares. (I should clarify these OWs are originally coworker/friends of his who I got to know - if that makes sense)
Thanks for letting me vent above, I actually don't feel quite so negative as my earlier post. I would say 90% of the time I feel great and am happy with my life. It is the 10% that is dark and depressing but it sticks with me.
Today I made a list of things I don't like about him and it helped me to be a bit more balanced.
Ganb8te and a few others have voiced that this time period of 7-8 months after BD seems to be a period of questioning what comes next for some reason. I think I thought it would be over in 6 months, that he would be back or I would be with someone else. It's an arbitrary time period but I guess I just couldn't imagine this going on so long. And now I am still feeling a bit raw and I want it to be over.
Oh and Mozza, thanks for bringing up that stuff about external validation. I don't think I really have a problem with that. I'm honestly happy being single and I'm pretty familiar with it. I guess it is more of a competition thing since WAH is dating so much. But I know this is a common problem... oh wait! WAH has this problem obviously!
I hope all of you are doing well and having a good day.
