Gb maybe you should read my thread, I seem to forever doing the hokey pokey.
Yes we will ask rhc nope I ask the cute dude out nah, how bout waiting no rush till mates party when I can hit on one of the tesicles mob.
And inside my head I go round and round, sometime I even scream at myself just ask one already. Any one just ask one.
I got all the skimpy undies the fairy god mother took me to buy stuff like that ages ago. they would however fit better if I found a few less kg over Christmas and kept loosing a bit of weight.
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M 46 h54 Both married before T 11y Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads! Ms 18 hs 26
And I backslid in the most epic way with a visit to HG last night while my x ILs were there. He works late and I left my house at 11:30 last night (everyone was asleep). And while it was an 11 on a 1-10 fun scale (because holy caca...the mere sight of that man turns me into a melted popsicle), I was a bit mortified to see my x FIL waiting at the door for me at 3:15 am. He said," are you okay?" Me: "I couldn't be better." And I kept walking back to the bedroom right past my former MIL who was reading her book.
WTF?? I swear I'm not sure what I am thinking sometimes and did I just do the walk of shame past my former MIL????? Did I??
Every time I do this it just makes me feel.....discombobulated. And yet, I made the effort to go get (excuse the crass expression but let's call it what it s) la!d......ACK
H has kids Saturday. Not sure if D will go but I will snuggle with my people tonight.
3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer
I am a visual guy ... I have this visual of you creeping in your own house, all freshly disheveled hair all over and your xFIL in his proper robe asking if you are ok and you are all like "He!! yeah I am ok, better than ok ... I am fantabulous"
Thanks for stopping by. You crack me up. Here is another visual. HG is like 7 layers of yummy. I convince myself that eh, big deal. Only 7 layers of yummy? Should I hold out for 10 layers?:)
3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer
Actually, each time I do this I try to evaluate (briefly I might add) how I feel. Does it make me feel bad? Sleazy? Free? Desired? Normal? Whenever HG asks me questions, I try to be honest. He asked me what I thought about after we had sex , I told him "nothing specific." When he asks "when can he see me again", I've noticed something. He says I don't respond enthusiastically but I feel like if I act like I want him, then he shuts it down. It's fine. It is what it is.
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3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer
I’m jealous too. I wish I could do something like that. When I was young, in my 20th, I actually did something similar. I kicked my first x out and I had this BF, who was 2 years younger. Well, when you are 26, it is some significant difference in age, LOL.
Good for you, GB!
The visual of you passing your x MIL while she was reading a book at 3:15 am just made my day!
M:50 H:52 S28 (my S from previous marriage) M:17 + 3 BD: 06/12 S: 06/12 - H works in another state
He says I don't respond enthusiastically but I feel like if I act like I want him, then he shuts it down. It's fine. It is what it is.
GB I love your postings and your honesty. A comment here though: when we are still healing we are likely to hook up with people who are somewhat damaged. It is good to bear that in mind. Not to rain on your parade - enjoy but be careful!
GG, BK, BF, and Bea-thanks for dropping by. I appreciate your thoughts. Bea, you are 100% correct. You aren't raining on my parade-like RiRi, I'm standing under my umbrella, eh, eh, under my umbrella. HG and I actually have several things in common (we are both loners-big time) and he IS damaged. He has had 2 relationships. He was engaged and she cheated on him with several of his coworkers and "friends" ( he actually walked in mid relations) and he still works with her. He said he has never spoken to her since he walked in on her and the "friend." The other was someone his friends set him up with. He came home one day and she had taken his dog that she gave him and left a note saying she had been pregnant, had an abortion, and wasn't sure if it was his. I don't think he has dealt with any of this. He just refers to it as having been through the "ringer." Oh, and he is exceptionally close to his mother. As in, they speak several times a day and he references her frequently. While a healthy R with a parent is good, my radar goes off on those guys whose Moms think they literally "hung the moon' and several sentences begin with "my mom said...."
Well, had a bit of an awkward exchange with X Mr. GB this am. He hasn't seen or spoken to kids in over a week. He gets there this am and walks back to the BR where I am getting ready. He sits on the bed and proceeds to tell me a new hire at his office used to be an assistant to the owner of a particular pro sports team and told me some stories. While these are things ex Mr. GB and I would discuss, it was strange as I was getting dressed and he just sat there. (I moved to the back of the bathroom to change shirts.) I looked at him for a minute-he looks haggard, skin broken out, and I have thought this for some time. I know this is mind reading and I also just "know" he misses something about me. The stuff we used to share-just funny stuff.
And to kick up the awkward another notch, I walked into LR and S5 said (in front of X Mr. GB),"Mommy, you and daddy love each other but you just aren't married, right?" Some of you may disagree with this although I just try to be as honest as possible without undermining or being hurtful, so I said, "Buddy, I think once at the rodeo of marriage was enough for Mommy. As I told you guys, I would like to meet a good person and have a R, but I think I will pass on marriage again." Ex Mr. GB said, "I just don't like discussing this S5." Of course he doesn't. He can speak for himself. I frequently tell my kids (because they always ask me about getting married) that I would like to meet someone one day and have a R, but marriage is not something I am interested in again...I of course could change my mind, although maybe not. Can't control the future. You hear that GB???? You can't control the future.
Trying to decide where to go for Spring break. Happy Friday! To all of you struggling, hang in there:)
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3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer
