Gogofo - LRT letter - planning a new beginning

[gogofo]

Going to bed, but wanted to journal a couple things that happened today that were unique.

When I got home from work my two youngest nieces were at the house and all the kids and my W were watching the Lego movie. My youngest was moody and cuddling with the W so my two nieces took it upon themselves to climb on my lap and cuddle with me. I was so happy. The middle nice even cuddled with me after she ate dinner. She specifically asked "I cuddle with you Tío?" They were too cute. They don't get much of a loving father figure in their lives because my BIL has substance problems so I think we both were getting emotional support from each other tonight. Don't think the W could ignore this as in the past she had thought that I didn't care for my nieces.

Later tonight the W had some school message boards to deal with so I readied the house for the cleaning lady tomorrow and reassembled the treadmill. The W took it upon herself to come all the way to my room in the basement to genuinely thank me for getting the house ready and putting the kids down while she did homework. She had not doing this in forever, I would get thanks from her recently, but only just as being polite.

We then went upstairs and had a candied jalapeno margarita and proceeded to openly discuss what has been going on in our jobs. It was a fairly deep conversation with discussions about stress and feelings and public funding of community colleges and free speech.

We haven't talked like that in a month.

Tonight she even showed me her dress for her college party that is 80s themed. I even got to zip and unzip her dress by request. That is the closest I have been to her in weeks. May have spiked my heart rate a little.

I thought I may have sensed a slight shift in the W again tonight. Not going to get excited or optimistic though, just going to stay the course. I will be out of town the next two to three days so that should give us some space.