Mighty, I am so sorry you are hurt and sad. It breaks my heart.
I wanted to talk with you about something. You are taking the blame for this and I cant let you do that. You think that if you did something differently it would have turned out differently.
That's just not true. Though it feels like it's about you, it really and truly isnt. Its about him and his brokenness. It doesnt matter what you did or didnt do or say. It would not have changed anything. I promise you that.
He is still in crisis. He is still confused and unhappy. He doesnt know why. Until and unless he looks within, he will never figure it out. So, please dont beat yourself up.
As far as the email, sometimes things need to be said...as long as there are no expectations on your part.
Take time to feel what you do and then release those feelings when you are ready.
