a young man with hope II

[lnlyshp]

Conflicted emotions the past few days. At first, I was relieved. Now I'm just sort of numb. I still haven't been served with papers, and I am still waiting on my consultation with L. Things between STBX and I have improved in the sense that we are no longer fighting about S. I relented to her request to enter S into daycare, he starts on Friday. It will be good for him, I hope. I don't really have the money to help out with it though, so I feel that will be an issue in the future even though she seems content to pay for it for now. We are shifting to a more traditional one week with me/one week with her schedule. I hope that is the best thing for everyone involved.

The dreams came back. These horrible dreams where she and I are still together. A couple times a night at least. I wish they would quit.

Classes have started up again. I like all of them so far. They give me something to fill my time with.

I hurt my back in the gym, so I need to take it easy for a while I think. 22 year olds aren't supposed to have back problems.

I feel lonely.