Starting a new thread as I backslid from focusing on my growth and happiness back into drama with W.
Did some pursuit after W said she missed me...more pursuit and arguing after W scheduled an out of town trip to party on her time with S12 without asking me... distracting emotional swing after W left an apology VM this morning... and teaching W a lesson today by again poking W on her trip this weekend.
So yes like you said Wonka at the end of the last thread... I let my irritation with W VM turn to anger over her trip to the West Coast this weekend. I did not engage with her in an argument... I just asked the question and then said I understand... wanted to now the truth... thanks. Still, damage was done as she sent a bunch of angry texts and a VM.
Like PM said... my emotions still drive my actions. I wanted her to know I'm pissed at the inconsiderate way she is taking this trip and I'll hammer her for any perceived disrespect. I did not do myself a favor today and was not at all productive today for work.
I messed up today and now I'm back to GAL.
For the last 2 weeks I've had S12 most every night. I've been taking him sledding, out to eat, and to his basketball game.
I will have him again this weekend and next week. I'm committed to at least take him bowling.
As for me... I have not been to Crossfit or anything else since the last time. I've identified a few things I'm signing up for...
Samba dancing class Acting class Scuba certification class
I'm also getting back into hackathon volunteering. There was also a good idea here about volunteering at an animal shelter with S12.
There was also the divorce support group right up the road that I never checked out. That will be a stretch for me so I should go.
On the schedule Wonka...W's proposed schedule is not bad. Could just use some changes. She agreed to have them up on the new calendar so I can edit it tomorrow. I will give her until then before I tell her again. The new calendar can also show on S12's phone for him to see.
I was reading Crimson's thread for the first time. He went through a lot, made a lot of mistakes, and it looked pretty hopeless. It took years to get where he is too.
I hear it everyday... marathon not a sprint. No reason for me to spend all this time with W's anger and changes and manipulations.
Time finally to find a life.
Me: 44 W: 45 S: 11 Married: 15 Together: 18 BD: 9/29/2014 OM discovered: 10/16/2014 I left her behind: 12/14/2014