So what was this with rhc? previous post I saw you said he had an event this weekend, come on .... Details
As to h, human nature being what it is we all can view events through a glass darkly. Given some of the stuff you've mentioned I dont think anyone would begrudge you every thought. The fact that you then question whether you're being fair says (to me at least) you are being so. Don't beat yourself up.
M:44, W:46, S:10 M 13 years, T 15 BD:23/7/2014 W/S Moved to MIL: 23/7/2014 My new place: 21/11/2014 W/S back to flat 22/11/2014 W coming closer, talking 4/2015 Piecing 5/2015 Moving in again 6/2015