Susana.
You have to learn how to be less hard on yourself. smile

I just read sth about infatuation. Which is scaringly true to my relationship. Fast marriages are mostly infatuated, and then some of them don't make the transition to true love.
I mean I loved my W from moment one. It was an infatuated picture of her, but I knew I loved her, but it took me all this pain to realize what it means to love someone, what responsibilty and work comes with it. She didn't make that transition. It's real for her, that it was infatuated.
So at this point....I feel like I have to give in, try to be her friend in the S and D process and be the best person I can be and hope she will fall in love with me again frown
It's hard to accept the truth and of course it doesn't excuse her behaviour, neither mine frown


Me 32 (German) Wife 28
T 3yrs M 2yrs
Moved to US for W
No kids
BD 6/2014
In house separation
Confirmed EA 1/2015
(ongoing since BD)
OM not ready
Real D talk started 1/27/15