I worrying that I am not detaching enough because when W talks with me and I listen and validate her I feel closer to her. Sometimes she comes in the MB and sleeps in the same bed, although she sleeps under separate blankets, I feel closer to her. If I get up and sleep somewhere else I would not feel right either.
W quit wearing her new "rock" shortly after the BD so I quit wearing my ring also. I think that is okay to do but not sure.
All of my children are distancing themselves from her and she is blaming me. I have pretty much kept my mouth shut about it. I have talked to the kids and they have all told me I did not influence them in their reasons to avoid her. On a few occasions I have explained what the opiates have done to her and the abuse she endured affects her behavior. None of the kids buy it, they say it doesn't matter she 44 yrs old and has had enough therapy.
Last night D25 posted some dirty laundry on her fb, she blocked all family and mutual friends, so only a few people D25 trusts received the post. However someone took a screenshot of the post and sent it to her mom. Then W started calling D25 and S22, they avoided her calls so she called me. I didn't get the post and D25 didn't complain about her mom to me, so i said I didn't know anything about to W. She accused me of lying, but I didn't respond. (W is out of town working for two weeks or they would have unloaded on each other)
W was put in the hospital for being suicdal in Jan. 2013, so I have fears of her taking an overdose of pills. She is on 5 or 6 psychiatric drugs, so if I was too leave and the kids exile her, she may put herself to sleep for good. I had a cousin commit suicide by taking an overdose of her pills.
I know that I have to live today and not worry about tomorrow or next week, etc.
M 53 W 44 D25 D20 S22 PA 10/95 BD abt 2k EA BD 9/2004 PA D'd 1/05/05 DB'd 9/2004-08 PA ends 02/2005 XW rehab 03/2005 piecing until OM3 June?/2005 Remarried 12/28/07 BD 12/18/14 Sep living together
