I GAL all along, and at the same time, S14 is my focus. I do visit with friends and do things with him, and I am always happy to just stay home and watch a movie with him, as well. My latest goal is to make my house more peaceful and positive. My plans are still the same as they were a year ago: Keep a stable environment and lifestyle for my son until he goes away to college...so 3 1/2 years more.
My main issue really seems to be keeping myself in check and not hating and lashing out at H. I know he has his own demons, and is in a constant struggle with them, just as I have mine. I do not smack-talk about him to S14, but I do have some serious resentment building up... sometimes I can be logical and sometimes I can lash out like the devil himself is spewing words and hatred out of my mouth... or text... I know mature love would be just wanting him to be happy, but honestly, I must not be mature! LOL... ish...
