Um, Mighty, what KML said. I am surprised you arent in a hospital. I mean, really, thats a whole lotta cr@p right there.
I dont want this for you. I dont want you sick and not sleeping. The worst has happened, right?
The thing is that you allowed yourself some expectations. I get why you did. He was saying and doing what you longed to hear. So much so that you werent really concentrating on what you werent hearing from him. Not really.
But all of that doesnt matter. What matters is you. What matters is that you know how strong you are. You made it through all of that stuff.
So, you lost your way a bit. It has happened to all of us. Our hearts sometimes lead instead of our head or our gut.
You know what you know now. The details really arent important. The only thing you need to know is that he isnt done yet and that he isnt going to be truthful.
With that knowledge, you can reset your path. Find your center, M. Hold on tight.
You are going to be ok no matter what happens. Better than ok.
The sooner you get to acceptance, the sooner you do what you need to do.
