MLCer and EA w/ OW

[Jer2911]

In such an emotional hurricane today -- despite all of my best efforts to avoid it... including a session with my therapist this afternoon where I just could not talk about much without crying -- and I haven't broken down into tears in my therapist's office since early November...

Honestly, right now -- if I could afford the house that is for sale down the street I would buy it in a heartbeat because I just don't want to deal with her when she gets back. If the person coming home tomorrow night is the same person who left this house 9 days ago, then I just don't want to be around her.

I know -- this is all just emotion and what I am feeling right now and with more inner work I can get over it and be stronger... But this is just how I feel right at this moment. There is so much anger surfacing right now... Arrrrggggghhhh!

In all likelihood, the exact same person is coming home tomorrow and I just have to deal with it... Grrrr...

The song going through my head right now: Never Again by Kelly Clarkson :-)

Okay -- need to finish some things up and go upstairs so I can just do some quiet reading, spend some time in prayer and pray very hard to feel more peace and strength around all of this, and then get some rest... Tomorrow is a busy day with much to get done during the day and after school with kids' activities. I hope all of the stuff I need to get done will occupy my mind during the day and help relieve some of the anxiety at least during the day.

Mantra at the moment:: The Lord is my shepherd, I WILL be okay...