Crap. I feel so weak compared to others here. People pick themselves up so much better. This is like eternal torture. Am I making this worse than it is?
Ummm....Mighty? Reality check? Your husband didn't just have an affair. He had an affair, lied to you about it while letting you think you were working on the marriage, got her knocked up, divorced you, bought a new house with her, neglected your children, came back and told you EVERYTHING you wanted to hear and then acted on NONE of it, had his child with HWW and is now sleeping with her again and was too lame to tell you, and is now neglecting your kids again.
WHAT part of this makes you think other people have it worse??? Really??? I dare you to find 5 stories here that are worse. You got walloped with the whole enchilada moving very fast, and then walloped again. Mopst of us get a little more notice, or it moves a little slower so we have more time to adjust.
I think you're doing just fine given the circumstances. I'm going to give you my mantra, the one that got me through when my ex finally left (after his affair, our reconciliation, and him leaving several years later after a repeat crisis) - LET GO OR BE DRAGGED.
Once I let go, my hair stopped falling out, I slept better, my life got better, gorgeous sexy men started falling into my lap, my finances improved.
Your life WILL GET BETTER - in fact, at some point you're going to be shaking your head that you ever let yourself get so sucked into this telenovela. Just let go. Make yourself a storyboard collage of all the great things yopu wish for in your life and start focusing on that fabulous future - it will be here soon!
