uR- you are right. I can move back to the place I was in October. That's were I need to be now. I had to set a boundary in the fall for xh to stay out of my house. He would come in when I wasn't home- NEVER near my house when I was home. That's just a boundary I had to set. He didn't come near after nuke, but he did once in like August or September. No, buddy.
And, for the record, he really hasn't stayed at my house. Once for sure, maybe twice? He has been staying at hww's. Nothing I can do about that.
He is totally capable of making arrangement with the kids. I'm out. I could go through the check list of things- out, out, out.
But, I am back. Backwards. Again. And I know I wont sleep. Wont eat. Ugh. You know. I am mentally stronger than I was. I mean, I know I will regroup much faster. But, my body is taking a beating. I feel it all inside.
Crap. I feel so weak compared to others here. People pick themselves up so much better. This is like eternal torture. Am I making this worse than it is?
Hey Matt. Thanks. You are right. And he is so broken right now. He has a very long way to go. In the meantime... I will get back on my horse. Back on my path. You know... travel down...The Road Not Taken (poetry to fit my entire life!). He is running, and running, and running... HEY! He's Forest Gump!
Quote from xh... using Tom Hanks's voice.
Quote:
That day, for no particular reason, I decided to go for a little run. So I ran to the end of the road. And when I got there, I thought maybe I'd run to the end of town. And when I got there, I thought maybe I'd just run across Greenbow County. And I figured, since I run this far, maybe I'd just run across the great state of Alabama. And that's what I did. I ran clear across Alabama. For no particular reason I just kept on going. I ran clear to the ocean. And when I got there, I figured, since I'd gone this far, I might as well turn around, just keep on going. When I got to another ocean, I figured, since I'd gone this far, I might as well just turn back, keep right on going.
