UPDATE----Today was another tough day....! I just can't seem to shake the memories and longing for W to be here. It's not so much who W is with or what she is doing as wishing we were here together. I guess this is the natural eb and flow of emotions and volitility of trying to deal with loving someone who does not love me. Sometimes just sometimes I wish I was the person I once was, that never cared about anything or anyone else. But then again love and commitment have a way of changing all that. I think I might be in my anger phase because I am so so so angry at W for giving all of this up. And for what!!!!! A Dbag who wouldn't make any sacrifices for her. I am still so lost, I just hope to keep breathing and one day rise above the pain and anguish of losing my best friend and world.
It's been almost a week of no contact what so ever and it seems to be getting worse. But I guess, you have to go through the eye of the storm to get to clear skies. I just hope that I have enough strength to weather the storm. Please give me strength to see this through.
