Hey Z, I hear ya. I really would like to see her...i mean we're used to not seeing each other but it still [censored]. Im just not sure were there yet to where I can just show up. I think she'd be happy but I'm not 100% confident of that and until I am, i don't wanna lose that foothold I've already established, you know what I mean? I have tried reaching out to her, and its a hit or miss. Sometimes she's all about it, sometimes she's not, so I know were not quite there yet either. I really appreciate the kind words and your positive attitude about it all, sometimes i just don't know, and i definitely need the pick me up.

T2- I am so guilty of that, I think we all are- maybe I am more than others...its so difficult to just not analyze the things she says...any ideas on how to just...not? What I think is, that at that particular moment in time, she feels that way, but its not all the time, and I leave it at that. Thoughts?

Interesting you bring this up today too, because again its just a weird day, in a good way? today. We texted all morning and she called me a couple times, not before sending me a picture of some baby clothes with a =( face...and then we proceed to get into a discussion about how her life is so different, and when she wonders about me she thinks about all the things she would be doing instead of what she currently is. Actually told me today that she realizes that all the things she is/wants to do right now, are things she could be doing here, but that when she made the decision to leave, she was not there mentally able to do that...

No talk about reconciling, and she's pretty set on riding out this path of hers, but
its stuff like this that I just wonder and I don't know how to stop myself from going there. Like..seriously W? sending me pictures of baby clothes with sad faces? Telling me about what you could be doing here? WHY?

I usually just validate and listen to her and let her talk, but its just hard T2, to not be like OK WHY ARE YOU TELLING ME THIS AND WHAT DOES THIS MEAN!
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On another note, I went grocery shopping for my cooking class and bought all the stuff I need to make mushroom bolognese? idk what it is and i don't think its super fancy but it looks delicious, and will be a nice change to Stouffers Lasagna every other day. So we start Friday, pretty excited!

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ME: 28
W: 24
M: 2.5yrs
T: 5yrs
BD: 22 SEP 14
W Leaves: 5 OCT 14