Jefe - The Beginnings of Courting - #9

[DaddyLongShanks]

Dang, I hope so. We came so far last week now I feel she is growing cold again and there is zero I can do about it.

I like the zig-zag analogy, it's very fitting. And very true from what I've seen.

Earlier in the day Sat, before the texts, she called while she was working, like has become her routine lately, just wanting to know what we were doing etc, then she said: "I wish I was there with y'all."

She posted later Saturday evening after the texting: "Life can be great one day and the next blow up in your face! That is why I try to cherish the moments. You never know what tomorrow may bring. I'm still grateful through the storms no doubt about it."

I have several people come up to me Sun at church commenting about her posts and asking me what was going on. Of course I have no idea still what is going on.

Her fantasy life that she was working on outside of you. That's what's going on.

Blogging,
Sunday, The wife's sponsor was at church and was cordial. I was hoping the wife might show up, but no cigar.

Having her in church is not a bad idea at all, the entire premise of church is a positive family structure and some of the positivity from the sermons will seep into her mind.

She called right after church wanting me to meet her around the corner at the $1 movies to drop the girls off. She came by the house as soon as the movie was over and decided she wanted to do some more work around the house. She had plans to go to an AlAnon meeting and I had Superbowl plans, but I told her if she was willing to cancel her's and stay here with me I would to. So we both did.

It's kind of soon. Try not to pursue her.

It was not quite as sweet and last Tuesday, but there were a few moments. I'm not sure exactly it came up or the full conversation but there was mention of her possibly moving back in but basically she said something to the effect of: "I never said I didn't love you, I just don't think I can live with you because you'll want to know why I'm not touching you or something like that and take it all personal and stuff,

But you would be wondering for a good reason. Knowing she doesn't touch or whatever the way she used to because of the OM. That she has compartamentalized you outside of affections and it does not feel good.

although the idea of moving back in is appealing." or something similar. I also asked her about the texts and what was going on and she replied that I didn't want to know (She's probably right) and that I would just "run my mouth" or shove it in her face. I just let it go.

Boy she's kind of mean. She said she doesn't really care about your feelings, but you definitely aren't going to make her feel guilty by running your mouth, but you might call her on some $hit and it's "irritating" for her.

At any rate the girls were to spend the night with her on Sunday and they ended up staying until almost bedtime before leaving.

Yesterday there was a lot of communication and she stopped by for a few minutes. Of course, last night was Pool, so that always changes her dynamic a bit.

Don't persue her. Some more GAL, some more time on yourself. Keep up the social stuff outside of her. I don't think she's learned her lesson about the cheating yet.