Was the past 18 years just a waste?

[June315]

I have been "off" in the past several days. Just survived my 14th anniversary by having dinner alone. He called and texted but I ignored him. He then sent me pictures of my dogs waiting by the front door. I texted back said be home in 1/2 hour. We did not say much when I got back but he did not seem upset.

I can't say if things are turning around but there are some positive changes. We have not had a fight in a while and I try to listen to him more. We only talk about him and his issues, without me complaining. So when he askes how I'm doing, I just say OK.

We had nasty snow yesterday and he called to say if i'm too scarred to drive, he would come to get me from work. I told him I'm ok and he did clear the drieway for me. This morning he put salt on the stairs and warmed up my car for me.

I know he has not looked for an apartment in a couple of days (OK I snoop sometimes)but still does not mean he is not leaving.