MLCer and EA w/ OW

[Jer2911]

Thanks BklynMom and Caliguy -- I am trying to not be too hard on myself. I've been doing this pretty much solo since BD in late October -- doing it solo even though W is still in the house because she's just in such a bad place that she has been "absent" in the morning routine. (You know, it is hard to be awake when your kids are getting ready for school when you've been up all night texting or talking on the phone with OW who lives in a drastically different time zone. Not to mention working long hours that prevent you from getting home in time to help with dinner or the bedtime routines.)

But we do have a morning routine -- which does include me getting up super early (5:15-5:30) so I can get my shower done before I get the kids up at 6:00 a.m. Most of the time they are already waking up on their own, but some mornings -- like today -- one or more are dragging... They do most of their own dressing, brushing teeth, etc., and I handle breakfast and making lunches for which ever child(ren) are not buying lunch that day. Today was just one of those days when one or more decided to mess around more than usual.

CaliGuy -- at least you got glimpses occasionally... I haven't seen my W -- the real her that I know and love -- since before BD. Yes, W does have moments now when she is somewhat civil, almost nice, to me but it's not the same and it's coming from a face that I just don't recognize. I am trying hard to get over that hurdle of thinking of myself as a single mom now. It's hard, because it's painful to think of it that way -- but in reality, that's exactly what I am now even with my W still living in this house. :-(