To Pursue or Not

[Arcola]

Georgia Bulldogs,
I wish I knew what she was keeping me around for. I'll admit I pursue her physically every once and a while, but am trying to not do so anymore. It would be nice to find a job elsewhere, but my kids are young so I don't even look at jobs over an hour or so from home

On OM note, she's still in contact with him. She went to his church this past Sun. and posted some pics on Facebook of our children playing at the playground and I noticed one of OM's kids pushing one of my kids on a swing.

Just blogging now....Today the bug spray guy who always does the house came over. He mentioned not being able to catch either of us at our homes so he can do the inside (we tend to forget our recurring bug spray appointments) and said to the effect I can never catch your wife, ex-wife, or soon to be ex-wife ever at her home. I felt my self getting defensive inside, but didn't say anything. I guess it was the thought of the ex-wife or soon to be ex-wife that got to me.

Everyday since we've been separated if she has the kids overnight I get to come over and visit. I'm glad things are sort of still open with regards to the kids. But after I left and went to the grocery store for a few things, W texts me that D9 is being bad and we haven't been separated for long, but if D9 had a choice she'd probably choose to come stay with me.

D9 we fostered beginning at age 3 and adopted at age 5 and she has always had an attitude. So that's what the text was about. I just thought it was weird she had to throw the being separated in there. I did respond only asking what D9 did and why. And said she did right to punish her as she did.

While I was at the grocery store I decided to go ahead and get Valentine's stuff out of the way. It was sad to look at the cards "For Wife" "For Husband" "For Someone Special." All I could think was I want to give one of these cards but I know its not right and also knowing I probably won't get a special card like usual. I ended up getting a humor one that had Snoopy eating chocolate on it and said something like "I couldn't decide if I should get you chocolates or a Valentine, so I got me chocolates and you a Valentine card." I also, got my kids their Valentine's candies/gifts. That's a 180 for me, I've always relied on her to get the kids things on occasions.