I'm so sorry your having such a hard time Ss. The weekend was bad for me too but I like MWD's fb post of 27th Jan. You should check it out and maybe the Scales will fall from your eyes.
M: 57 / EW: 52 T: 21, M: 8 S: 18, S: 15 Bomb: 1 Jun 14 EA Aug 2014 I think PA Feb 2015 possibly sooner