Hey S. I just wrote a long post to you and I freakin lost it. Hate when that happens. LOL.
Ok, so you are right, divorce is very sad and you feel how you feel.
I think though, that you kind of set yourself up with worrying about how you are going to feel or act, that it makes it so, ya know?
These are some ways to stop your emotions from driving your actions.
I meant it when I said to make sure you look good. That always made me feel good. It gives you confidence.
I used to try to figure out different scenarios of what he may say and figure out how I would answer him. It helped to keep the emotions at bay and allows you not to be caught completely off guard.
I remembered that I was fighting for my son and no one, including my h, was going to stop me from doing that.
I like what your therapist said. You are deserving of being treated with kindness and care from your spouse.
I wouldnt worry right now about whether its possible to have the kind of relationship you spoke of right now.
I told you how small I was at bomb date. I had allowed my h to make me feel unworthy and incapable.
I needed new mirrors other than my mother and my h because those werent serving me well.
So, I watched how people responded to me. I smiled more, engaged more. I saw how much my son, sister, niece and nephew loved me. The more I grew, the more mirrors I got.
You are an amazing woman, S...smart, funny, real. When you meet with him..remember this..you are strong..be her, you are capable..be her..you are a wonderful mother....be her. Dont allow him to take any more from you, S.
There will be peace one day, sweetie. You will be ok. Things happen as they should. I truly believe that.
