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[Calibri]

So. H sent me an email, responding to an email that I sent him about having to do taxes, keeping the lines of communication open (I had a sick dog twice last week - his dog -- and couldn't reach him because he had blocked me) and some general stuff.

This was his response back (keep in mind, last email I got from him was and I quote, "I don't plan on working on the marriage, thank you for your understanding.")
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"I apologize that I have been unreachable. I hit what felt like the breaking point for myself and had to take all steps I could to prevent. I know that doesn’t help you but I am just trying to explain myself somewhat.

I agree we have to keep the communication lines open. There are things at the house that need to be attended. I didn’t think we would file taxes separately.

I am removing the block in case of emergencies. And I would like to plan to text/possibly speak Wednesday evening. I will be working late today and tomorrow trying to catch up after being out sick for 1.5 days.

I am sorry you had to endure what I most recently put you through. I hope you are faring better."

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So what now? Where's Wonka -- she's the queen of email responses.

We so desperately need to communicate with one another.

The week this all went to hell in a handbasket (the latest time), he got passed over for a position at work, got a negative review, denied a raise, felt the lowest point that he had been in years, told me he was working on things with me, got busted on Tinder and having a conversation with a girl on FB, decided to enforce boundaries for the first time in his life, moved out of his hotelbatcave, had several bad therapy sessions with his therapist digging up childhood chit and started talking in depth to his toxic mother and told me that he feels that all he does is hurt people in his life, disappoint them and can't amount to anything.

I'm honestly surprised that he's at work -- the kid (that's my nickname for him sometimes) is made of some tough stuff. Granted, he probably got the separation letter today so who knows if that'll send him into a tailspin as well.

I would like to know what's going on -- why he feels the way he does. I would like to work on my 180's, because quite frankly he's the one who pushes my buttons and I don't have a chance to practice them with him because he has ZERO communication skills.

Regardless of what happens to us -- I love him. So deeply. So truly. I want what's best for him. And I am so concerned for him right now. I was to be supportive, but I honestly, just do not know what to do other than stand stock still and let him talk. Like no sudden movements, you know?

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Help?