Good morning everyone, Today I am sitting at my brothers house watching Dora Dora with my amazing and beautiful niece. But I might as well be a million miles away. I woke up missing W more than anything. And I feel that hurt and anger and feeling of lose and defeat start to creep up in me. I try and tell myself W is not herself right now and she is just as lost as I am actually probably more, but I still can't pull myself out. Last night a friend told me W and OM were out with a group even though there is a no contact order on him. I finally had to say "hey just have to let her figure herself out and step back" but its so hard when everything I have done for the past 8 years I had my W/best friend with me. And it doesn't help my entire family loves her and continually asks about her. I am struggling this morning and i hope I can climb out of this funk.
