Well Sunday night comes to a close. It was a good Super Bowl even if I did want Seattle to win. My D 22 came over for part of the game so that was nice. FIL did not stop by but I didn't expect it, just wanted to make him know he was welcome. Today was a hard day for me as we always watched the Super Bowl as a family, made a bunch of snacks, and did a football pool. Those days seem forever away and forever lost. I've been extra emotional today...tears flowing too much.
Got little ones bathed and off to bed. Drop them at daycare in the morning and then I won't see them for a week which is going to be really hard on me. I'm trying to think of something to do tomorrow after work to keep my mind busy. I think my DB/DR books might arrive so that would be good.
I'm encouraged by some of the stories I read on here but I have to admit I also get very discouraged at realizing what a long way I have to go and what I already feel are very slim chances for my M.
It's easy to see things in retrospect and know what you should have done, should have said. It would be so easy for us to all correct our M knowing what we know now but so very difficult and daunting task now. I've always had a kind a gentle heart and loved my W but I see now how I pushed her away. I am and will be forever humbled by this experience no matter how it turns out.
Goodnight to all of you.
Last edited by vdubber; 02/02/1503:43 AM.
M: 44 W: 45 Married 26 Together 28 D: 22, S: 18, S: 9, D: 7 S: 12/2013, seperate houses OM revealed first 10/2013, stopped seeing him OM revealed 1/2015, been going on for quite some time
