Hello Lisa. Thank you for your advice. I do believe you are right about calling her on her inconsistency and inconsideration.
Even so, I think you are also right about being very very loving to her while I do so.
I sent her a text just now apologizing for my reaction to her travel and wishing her well on her trip.
When she offers to do something, I just expect it may not get done. No surprises when it doesn't. No surprises when she's inconsiderate. Doesn't matter.
She right though... if I don't trust her, it's my problem. I can't keep putting myself where the matter of trusting her matters to me. It doesn't matter where she goes or what explanation she offers.
I can't turn this around with her. I can only act like a better me. I don't get mad, I don't ask questions, I don't make demands. Like you said, when she doesn't do something, just let her know nicely what I expect next time and keep going.
Sandi you are right I deserve better and I must act like someone who really does.
I can do this.
Me: 44 W: 45 S: 11 Married: 15 Together: 18 BD: 9/29/2014 OM discovered: 10/16/2014 I left her behind: 12/14/2014