Busting a Move - LisaB Ch6

[LisaB]

Hi Ganb8te my dear,
Indeed there's not really any movement over here. I've had a few text conversations with the WAH in the past month but nothing really different than the past 6 months before that. Him acting all buddy buddy but then nothing new really. He wants to meet up next week but I don't see why. More of the same I predict.

In my case I think the status quo could continue a long time as well. I think my H is trying to keep me right here so I don't get away completely but he is not willing to sacrifice his OWs and freedom to get me back. But I don't know what he is really thinking or feeling.

I've pulled away further in the past month. I don't know if he has even noticed. After complaining about it a lot last month he has cut back on his contact too. So who knows.

I guess I don't really have a plan. I am trying to heal and move on. I'm open to being single and thinking that I actually like it better than being with him. I'm letting go. It scares me a bit that I might be better off without him, I feel like I'm falling into the abyss. That once I really let go, it is over and I will never see him in the same way again. That scares me.

The other day a very handsome man asked me on a date. I found myself thinking "uh oh, WAH better wake up soon or I'm going to fall for someone new and forget him". I almost wanted to call him and tell him that. His window is closing fast, or maybe it is already closed.

And like you, since there has been no movement I almost want to temperature check. But I do feel it is hopeless. That until he is ready to say/do something there is no amount of talking or asking questions that will help me.

If I do meet with him I guess I will see how he behaves. Last time I saw him was the dreadful evening in december. Now looking back I see he was very upset with me for pushing him away and ignoring his calls and texts, and thus was acting like a baby. Just another reason why I could do better...

I hope you are well Ganb8te and everyone else!
Hugs, Lisa