On the brink, need a miracle

[Onguard]

Thanks for checking in SRD. I have been busy with work and GAL lately. I just got back from a ski trip with my D13. Not much has changed with my M. Our family recently went on a trip to FL but things between my w and I were very strained. We barely spoke to each other. Since the trip I have pulled back a lot. I do not text or call her. I do not start conversations or even say hello or goodnight. If there is ever going to be a reconciliation it is going to have to be started by her. It still hurts like hell but I am finally, slowly, starting to accept reality. My w has not been in love with me for a very long time and the chances of her coming back are very close to zero. I have to walk away and never look back. I am seeing my attorney next week and I am definitely going to begin the process of ending the M. I need to move on with my life and focus on me and my kids.