Devastated Husband; Need Advice...Part 2

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But back to you, eventually you're going to have to decide how much you're going to tolerate before changing strategies.

I struggle with this. Daily.

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Been in a funk lately. Idk why. Just have feelings of hopelessness and its laughable to think that this could work out. Sometimes I can picture it, but most of the time, I just wonder if this is what it is. If I should keep trying, keep driving on.

In spite of everything, I am a better person having gone through this. And its only been 4 months. I don't know how people did this for years. I really admire that.

Idk why its been like this the past few days. I haven't felt this low in a while. And I don't know why. W has been on my mind a lot lately and its not that I try and think about her, just kinda happens. Also been having dreams about her, good and bad, and this hasn't happened in a long long time.

Ugh. I just want this drama to be over. Feels so pathetic to whine and bitch about this. This is not who I am. I think what also doesn't help, is that some of the threads I have been following since I joined here have took a turn in the wrong direction. And I cant help but wonder if Im next. I try and read success stories to keep a PMA but sometimes, [censored] happens. I will say that no matter what happens, we are all giving it our best and are better people because of it. It seems like some people who I think are doing awesome at DBing...in the end, we cant control anything and the sitch's that seem to show the most promise, don't always work out. Its not in our hands. And I don't know how to deal with that.