Hardest part of this is trying to take care of myself and the kids and keeping my spirits up day after day. Yesterday he left to stay at the hotel again and will be there the weekend. I try to tell myself that this is what he needs to do to help clear his head but the uncertainty of it all is what really gets to me.
How can I think about this in a positive way? Some days I'm optimistic and upbeat but other days I just have this feeling of dread and desperation that just permeate through my head. I don't feel like doing anything when I feel that way.
My H had always been very affectionate and loving. I had never doubted his devotion to me. I think that is one of the reasons why his detachment and distance has been so hard for me. I'm grieving over this loss; but unlike death, I can't put it behind me and move on. Would it help to look at my M now in a different way - like a business partnership between two people?
____________________________________ Me 48; H49 M16 D13 D15
