It was really tough to hear her say as most of the emotional stuff we'd had over Xmas was clouding the messages (both ways) whereas this was two adults, talking quite calmly about something awful like the destruction of our M. I did trip up a few times in saying the wrong thing or pursuing but I couldn't help it. She understood how difficult it was to hear for me and she wasn't being cold or callous about it at all like I'd experienced previously. She was just trying to be honest with me, and herself in saying that she feels that this M has run its course.
I still have a very faint glimmer of hope. I could see it in her today that she was genuinely sad about doing this, and although it's mind reading, I think there still may be a bit of doubt in there somewhere. It was almost like she was as much trying to convince herself as much as me that this is for the best.
You're right Mozza, in that I need to use this to detach. I'm not giving up on this, but I really do have to face the facts that this is more than likely not going to go the way I'd like, and that I'm probably going to be a 40 year old ex-husband some time soon. I'm gutted about that.
Barry.
Me 40 W 38 T 23 M 21 S21 S19 D16 S14 BD 19/12/2014 D mentioned 27/2/2015. I filed 08/04/2015, D Absolute 04/11/2015
