Part 11 - contents may be different than

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Texted w to confirm what she wants to do, she then called me.

She's heading over a little later. She seemed chatty so took the opportunity to discuss some of S's concerns. Positive conversation. As she said would have been strange if s wasn't feeling some of this but she and I will keep an eye on him for signs of him needing to talk. Said again that I can sort someone if he needs to talk or he can go with w or I and if we all need to go we can discuss first.

First time we've really got near our r since august. Wanted to be sure I wasn't pushing any outcome (to be honest I'm not sure what outcome I want at the moment except the one that makes s happy and secure and makes none of us miserable) but I had to make her aware of his concerns. I said that he had been worrying about blended families (see yesterdays post) and I couldn't and wouldn't promise him anything as I dont know how it will end up and that may well be the case but she will always be his mummy and I will always be his daddy and we will both always love him.

Also said i did take it as a good sign he felt he could talk to me about these things as he'd previously felt unsure of where he stood (before bd) w said when she's asked if he was ok she gets stories of Minecraft so sometimes it can be pinch of salt time.

S can indeed be a bit of a spinner of tales sometimes to get his own way (he is a 10 year old boy after all) sometimes to make others feel better but there's no way none of this is true and I think today's the first time I heard w say she aknowledges the effect on him.

Of course no mention of "it" from me and shes either moved past it (probably wishful thinking) or is still in deep consideration of what to do and the impact. Sorry last bit is more my journalling.

Stayed positive and I didn't feel any fear in bringing it up which boosted my PMA confrontation, even small ones, would have made me shy away before so something's working.

Anyway good positive call w wanted me to hear her cat (actual cat before you lot start!) she heard bft (both being sat on by out mogs right now) let's see how today goes, time to get s up and fed and me showered shaved and dressed.

Have a good one