Part 11 - contents may be different than

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Goooood eeeevning all.

So back from a long day out. S in bed me on sofa under my throw again. Mostly great time today couple of downers some of which are outside of my control some of which aren't.

First you guys are great thanks for all the fun on my last thread Jim, toots, dawn, ganb8te, v and cyber coffee date gg.

So let's run through today.

Got over to w as usual groomed tidy hair done nicely shaved etc togged out set up the printer and got the drivers sorted w was happy for me to access laptop etc but made sure she was there while I did anything in the PC - I dont go a snooping and want her to understand that especially if "it" surfaces anytime soon - had a coffee and w was heading out to her coffee morning as s and I left.

Made s croque Monsieur for breakfast when we got back, simple yoghurt for me with black coffee.

Headed off out sorted fuel and checked the tyres etc then headed off for the science centre. Much fun had with the exhibits and two visits to the planetarium. This evenings stargazing was unfortunately completely clouded over, indoor alternatives I thought were good but s wasn't that gripped, he asked could we head home and we did.

Soon on the way home he told me he'd been upset this week. Not going into full details but twofold firstly that mummy and daddy aren't in the same place like some of his friends and secondly that he doesn't want new mummies or daddies. Didn't overreact to the latter asked him what he meant. Think he's seen shows with blended families (cbbc especially) and thinks thats how we'll end up.

Had to think on this as, for all I know, may end up like that. I have made no mention of new people, dating, ladies or anything similar and wouldn't do even if I was actively deciding to date right now - which as you all know I'm not. W? No idea she says not but even so I dont believe she'd bring it up either.

Right now I simply can't say and he's processing enough at the moment, ended up saying that mummy will always be his mummy and daddy will always be his daddy regardless of how things end up settling.

He seems happier this evening, said he should talk to w or I if anything is playing on his mind and he shouldn't worry, told him I'm very proud that he's done so well and its difficult but we'll all be ok no matter what the arrangements it just may take some time.

Tricky conversation. S suggests that w is dissmisive when he asks about these things. When I've raised this with w she says nope this is s spinning tales to make me feel better. Makes it difficult to get to the issue. All I can do is really be there for him and work on it all when he's with me. He also said that he sees coming to me as a special occasion rather than day to day. Again just validated him and supported what he was saying in reality he's coming very frequently and often for longer visits. I see his upset but right now with w acting as teacher as well as mum its difficult to work with. Its a challenge.

Sooo yes. That was a heavy bit of talking with a ten year old while driving. Seemed to lift him a bit though. We got back and got him off to bed.

Emailed w to tell her about the science centre and evening and a few pics. Really really considered adding in something about conversations with s but I know she'll dismiss that as me "pushing" her and using s. I actually found myself thinking as that crossed my mind that right now for the first time I'm not 100% sure thats what I want so why would I push her right now? Anyway decided its something better brought up in person or a call so didn't include it.

So now just chilling, tomorrow w is coming over and were heading up to IKEA. W seemed variable today. Welcoming and helpful this morning although looking tired and in some texts today concerning tomorrow she came across as curt and dismissive and looked to be getting out of going (so much so that I said was all flexible - I have no issue if she drops out its really as she wanted bedroom duvet covers etc no hassle if she wants to stay home) really confusing but I'm not drinking the coolaid today.

So there we go that was today, do I get some gal points v?
Managed to explain standing waves, energy transfer, moment, momentum, pendulum effects and timings, vortices and the Bernoulli effect without s dozing off so hopefully good for his science work anyway