If I take money out of the account to pay a retainer, he'll know. If I call the accountant for copies of the tax returns, he'll know.
I feel like I need to have that talk with him that I keep putting off (because even though I've taken back control and I feel informed and empowered, I still have visceral anxiety reactions that I just HATE), get a feel for what's up, his mood, his goals and maybe suggest we use this atty that I found as a mediator? I don't know.