Job and UR thank you so much! I think I will have a good cry and hang out watching movies with my kids tonight! I respect both of your input and opinions so much!
Job I really think he is clueless- I think he still thinks that I am getting the better deal out of this whole scenario. Bizarre! But I am definitely feeling better about his company loan as I knew he was hiding something and my gut was right! S8 is acting out at school and has a lot of crying spells. He also won't talk about any of the issues with H or me but has asked our nanny ( sometimes people get back together, right? Mommy and daddy are nice to each other" it just breaks my heart! We are getting him in soon with a counselor.
UR- I really appreciate you being candid with me. I can take it!! The kid stuff is a big deal to me- he used to talk about what a wonderful caring mother I was and then for a year or two before BD up until recently he was really giving me a hard time and I let him. My guilt about starting a practice and the amount of time it took turned to shame when he was in his "mean" stage. I know that's mine to work on still. And as far as dating- I know you are right- I just feel like I want to go out there and be ok. ( oh and my sex drive is crazy- what's that about??!!). I would never want to mess with anyone's feelings the way I feel mine have been. I'll just look at the menu for awhile but won't partake
Me 41 H 40 M 20 T 23 S 19,16, 8 D 13 BD1 dec 2012 not sure going to work BD2 sep 2013 seeking a D Filed oct 2013, D Feb 2015 Life is about daring greatly, about being in the arena- Brene Brown
