Yeah, the tax return thing... I don't know what to think. I'm not so sure it's completely sinister but it is strange.
He doesn't have any kind of organizational system, never has. Contracts for projects are scattered around in his car, opened and unopened bills in 5 different places, medical docs, just all kinds of paperwork is all over the place. There's no order or plan... He has always lived life by the seat of his pants like this. I'm not exaggerating when I say that he loses his keys in three minutes no matter where he is and they're never near his sunglasses which are also lost inside of three minutes.
To get my hands on these tax returns I'm going to have to talk to him about what path we're taking on this D route. He'll just have to cough them up or get them from the accountant.
Things were strange yesterday. I went by Ds karate class and he was there. We chatted for a bit about her week, etc. Somehow he mentioned that he is now seeing a psychiatrist. I simply asked if he was OK. He said he was. I know he's depressed and incredibly angry but the past few encounters he seems more grounded and real. Maybe he's on something? I didn't inquire further but he told me about the psychiatrist the same way he tells me things of vulnerability: "I shouldn't be telling you this but..."
Also last night at the school event I was working, he brought D7 so she could hang with her friends. He was very engaged with me, asking if I needed help, asked how things were going, etc... At the end he drive me to my car (I had to park in Egypt) and he opened my car door for me. Something he has not done since before BD. It's nothing, I know that but it stuck out so much to me.
Anyway... My anxiety is a but more in control. My bestie called me yesterday to see how my meetings with the attys went. Her mom is visiting her and her mom divorced her dad when my bestie was 12 so she wanted to talk to me and encourage me, etc. it was so nice. My bestie's mom is a true woman of strength and grace with a grounded and reasonable head on her shoulders so it was just wonderful to chat with her, hear her opinion on the atty I'm probably going with, to make suggestions on how to handle moving, etc. it was just really nice.
